Nostalgia

Nostalgia: a sentimental or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy associations. Even before the world slipped into unhappy times, I’ve been thinking about the concept of nostalgia. The ability to transport ourselves to a happier place and time through memory fascinates me. It serves no purpose, from a Read More

Recovering Yourself

We’ve all been there before, some more often than others. For me, it was a constant cycle. Moving through the day in a fog, reacting instead of taking action. Willing time to pass so I could be finished with my daily obligations. Doing, saying, and expecting the bare minimum. And finally reaching the point where Read More

The Year I Barely Survived

It’s the time I still have trouble talking about, but feel the need to share. It’s a story of overcoming, and I hope it reaches the right person. I can write about it now, two and a half years later, because I can see the beauty that arose from the ashes. And I can bring Read More

Don’t Control…Create!

This is the time of year where, as I like to put it, “something’s got to give.” With the busy-ness of the holidays, calorie-dense food and drink everywhere I look, the cold and dark creating an unfriendly environment for exercising, a variety of illnesses infecting my household, and this year my husband being away, I Read More

Becoming

About two months into my sobriety journey, I came across the following quote from one of my heroes, Brene Brown: “Are you the adult you want your child to become?” Ouch. I immediately winced, the pain, shame and regret from drinking for the entirety of my three children’s lives still haunting my every waking moment. Read More

The Truth, As I See It

What if, one day, you realized that your reality—the truth you had been fed and willingly accepted—was a lie? What if those in a position of power through their words and images and actions told you, showed you and tried to prove to you that something was safe and acceptable when it really wasn’t? What Read More

What Did You Want to Be?

Nobody plans on becoming a problem drinker; to let a substance take the driver’s seat and lead them down a road many don’t return from. No child colors a self-portrait of herself drinking her way through life. No teenager sits in front of a computer screen, composing a college essay and writes, “my future plans Read More

Me 2.0

I am many things: wife, mother, teacher and writer, to name a few. Six months ago, however, the roll I identified with most was alcohol-dependent lost soul. I had come to the point where I was just existing in my life, loathing who I had become and how my life had “turned out.” I teach Read More